MY LAYOUT IS MESSED UP!!!

i CNT FIGURE OUT HOW TO CHANGE IT.

=(

HELP??

AS I SIT HERE THROUGH EARLY HOURS OF THE MORNING iM REMINACING ON MY EARLY YEARS OF COLLAGE EDUCATION.
I AM REMINDED HOW YEARS OF BLOGGING HAVE BECOME AN ADDICTION. AND AS A PART OF SELF EXPRESSION. SOME COMMUNICATION VEHICLE THROUGH CYBER SPACE.
iN A WAY IS TO SHARE MY ENTITY WITH THE REST OF THE WORLD. i GUESS I ALWAYS FELT LIKE AN OUTSIDER. WHICH I CONSIDER THIS TO BE THE ONE KING PAPA OF MY WEAKNESSES.
THOUGH I FOUND A COMMUNITY ON THE WEB I FELT WELCOMED. WE KINDA MADE A BOND BETWEEN EACHOTHER. BESIDES MY GLORY DAYS OF BLOGGING I FELT THE HOURS CONSUMED BY TIME HAVE LEFT ME FRAZELED. TIME SEEMS TO BE
SQUEEZING EVERY INCH OF SERENATY FROM ME. iT HAS LEFT ME FRAZZED. i AM STUCK BETWEEN THE LINBO OF TIME. aS I GO BACK TO THE DEW HOURS OF TOILING OVER CONCEPTS TO BE LEARNED. THE MANY TIMES I DENIED MY SElF FROM THE OUTSIDE WORLD.
iT WAS LIKE I WAS IN A STATE OF TRANCE. WHICH I COULD HAVE GONE ON FOR EVER.
I MISS THOSE MOMENTS THE THE DEDICATION THAT WHENT INTO THE PEN. " AND SO I AM REMINDED OF THAT EVERYTIME I LOOK BACK
so THEY SAY THAT "THE PEN IS MIGHTIER than the sword"
Recollections of a soft lit light embracing white sheets of noteboooks. The chill of the night as it passes on assuring me that day will come. its only a few momnets before i slombe.
The enthusiastic and sort of play to beat the odds. It brought some kind of assurance. It was all i knew.  life could not throuw me a fast ball. i have comed out of my borrow. i rember nights of sharing and of laughter.
Like my self and my companions were in search to take on the world. To conquer test by test and to get us thorugh to the rest of the school semester.The welcoming of a start of a new semester brought us closer to achiving or getting
closer to our goal. For what ever reason we have invision ourselves to be placed. those wonderful moments of dreaming. We were really in the persuit of happiness. or that it is my case.
I dnt really just want to be good enough i wanted to be the best. i took it all in  i was knowledge thirsty. This was in a  way a sort of empowerment. i found my self in control. There was a final point i was aiming to. 

 once that path became blurred by the consequence of times.;... future seemed muglled like a dampy road side of pudles the path was not so straight and easy to follow. it seems like when i hit that road blocked i sinked deepre and deeper into a satte of stacnation
where i could not cryout for help neigther could i help my slef. i shed tears over something i have begun to mourn. My sense of enthusasm It was absent.
yet i now long for those years........................................................>>>>>>>>..it is beyong comprehension.

Well this week i been readying magma. im supriced i finished the entire book. oh and i forgot to turn the books in oops.

  <<<<dream of mirrors>>>

 I have also doen alot!!! of moving and packing and now i have to organize.

But im really happy right now. I got to see my babe. We had an awsome time together. And im preparing to go visit my family. Im static at the moment.

this is how happiness looks and feels. hehhe. hmmm no matter where i am i prefer been with my babe and thingss will  get better i know they  will.

jujst a matter of communication and some compromising. any ways I hope that i will be able to travel pretty soon. besides that my godmother just contacted me on facebook from

the netherlands...would i love going there some day i hope to travel there and one destination is to go to the grancanyon. we would both love going there and maybe i will get the opportunity to

take my dad along with us. so he can show off, hahhaha.

my little brother lol

 happy summer =] 

Currently Te Presumo By La Banda el Recodo =[ =[ i wonder if i will ever be that girl ='( see related

I was browsing threw the internet.

And i was amazed how much  it talks about the way i feel. Most of my entrieds deal with my own life. But its seems is all benting.

I guess. Again ..Im having a hard time right now. i dont know if any one else ever flet helpless. like my skills are not adeccuate. having a hard time looking for a JOB, any advice on

how to move past my fear. besides....not making payment this month...I just dont feel conforted by my partner.....Like there is always something missing. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

i wanna scream my head off!!!! m='( i really dont know waht to expect. i hate this feeling.